8 April 2020

Dear Diary,

It’s me again.

I wrote down my feelings last week, but here I am again. Though my family has been affected by Covid-19, I’m trying to remain in high spirits. My anxiety is really high, but I’ve had the same album on repeat for five days now. I’ve been trying to keep myself busy by watching countless episodes of shows on Netflix and Hulu. I am trying my best to keep up with all my assignments for school even though there’s a lot going on.

Today, my mom is being tested for the virus. Staying positive is hard because it’s such a scary time. Music helps me more than anything else. It keeps me calm. The best I can do is pray and keep myself at ease in the midst of chaos. All my life I’ve dealt with trying times and worry, I know everything will be okay. Somehow, it’ll all work out. That’s another thing that helps me. Keeping positive thoughts in my head as much as possible keeps my mind clear of any fears that I may have from day-to-day. I also remind myself to breathe. I feel like sometimes I forget to do that, and it’s supposed to be something your body does automatically.

Faith. Music. Meditation.

These are my keys to getting by.

I stand by it.

China